Yesterday, I had my first
taste of a failure as a mum.
A taste of dissappointment.
A taste of sadness.
Now I know how my mum felt
when I dissppoint her time
and time again when
I was a rebel Teenager.
I was utterly shocked,
sad and
speechless.
I cried of sadness when
I *beat* him up badly.
I know its not his fault.
I know he was influnced by his
friend.
But, still I have to teach him
right and wrong.
Good and bad.
I hope he learned his
lesson.
I know there will be more
dissappointment,
anger, sadness
in the future.
But, I pray to ALLAH
that it wont happen.
I know some things
are unavoidable.
Thats' life.
Maybe, I took this
too hard.
But, when come to my
childrens.
I want them to be
the most respectable
and likeable people.
I hope I have achieved that.
And yesterday incident
was a blimp.
Something that brought me
back to reality
that no matter how hard
or how protective
I am towards my childrens.
Certain things are beyond
our control.
NOBODY PERFECT, afterall.
InsyaAllah, ALLAH will
protect and give guidance to all my kids.
A path that will bring them to heaven.
LOL.
I am over-sensitive like that.
Peace.
1 comment:
what happen to haqeem? relax, i faham..arian at this age pun dah pandai rebel..kena bedal jugak.haha
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